I’m like a FOOL!

For the longest time.. I felt like a total fool today!

Story all started with a friend that I "adore" cos he is like a younger bro to me lah… Very sweet guy… But then as usual me lah… think I over do things a little lah… long story short, I screw up!

So I ask him for a favour and felt extremely uncomfortable about it after asking. Like I am taking things a little for granted. Though he agreed, I cancelled the favour and got another friend of mine to help out instead.

Though it seems like I am an important friend or "jie jie" to him, and the fact that he did say I am a friend that he treasures, somehow it may and may not be true, after all… but foolish me just simply take it as true and and went all the way out to help and care for that person…. then when things didnt seems the way it is, I started to feel like a fool and doubt myself that my actions may have "scare" ppl away or become a nuisance to ppl….

And immediately after all this feelings, I just want to hide away and become invinsible…. but in the real world, it cannot be that way cos i’ll still have to face the person… And it’ll turn out that I was thinking too much into it myself… sigh…or the person will just distant from me…

This is why I felt like a total FOOL today… confused and screwed up too…

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